Okay, so, you know that feeling when you jump from an extremely great height, and you know that you have a 50/50 chance of living or dying? Are you scared? Do you like being scared?
I enjoy a challenge, and I enjoy the thrill, and the exhilaration, and the 50/50 doesn't scare me. The idea of death makes is soothing.
What I'm afraid of is the impact. The broken bones. The unknown months of surgery and therapy. The chance of a coma. The chance of living, but not being alive. The pain.
If I jumped, I'd want to die.
And well,
If I told you I loved you, I'd need you to love me back. Or I don't think I could handle the aftermath.
I might.
But I'd never fully recover.

Okay, so, you know that feeling when you jump from an extremely great height, and you know that you have a 50/50 chance of living or dying? Are you scared? Do you like being scared?
I enjoy a challenge, and I enjoy the thrill, and the exhilaration, and the 50/50 doesn't scare me. The idea of death makes is soothing.
What I'm afraid of is the impact. The broken bones. The unknown months of surgery and therapy. The chance of a coma. The chance of living, but not being alive. The pain.
If I jumped, I'd want to die.
And well,
If I told you I loved you, I'd need you to love me back. Or I don't think I could handle the aftermath.
I might.
But I'd never fully recover.