this is for Him
Tuesday, August 23, 2011 @ 4:48 PM
if you ever find this blog, and if you know who i am, then i'll be happy.
i want to say that
i saw you for the first time.
at least, that's what it felt like. your face
your hair
your presence -good lord. i wanted you so badly.
immediately.
all i could do was look at you. well, stare at you. sorry. i guess that was creepy.
but if you saw you the way i saw you then you'd swoon-as i nearly did.
it had(has) been a long time. and i realized that i didn't know you anymore.
and i was more than slightly depressed until you reminded me that not all things change when you cracked that joke. said that stupid thing. smiled at our friends.
your smile.
(did i say something about swooning earlier?)
and when you saw me, i swore you remembered. there was a shock - to both of us. and i shivered with delight, and you smiled as we locked eyes.
it lasted for such a short span of time.
i wish it hadn't.
i wanted to tell you that-well, lots.
if you read this, and if you feel at least something of what i feel
then keep reading. and i'll be happy.
and maybe we'll do lunch.
